Angry, bitter, scathing:
These are the words to describe me,
Before I met you.

I was tormented by the pains,
Of failed loves past,
Unable to forget how it seemed,
As though I was destined to be alone,
In solitude forever.

I buried, nay destroyed,
All that was kind and good about me,
Replacing it with an unrestrained wrath,
That consumed every fiber of my being.

I was in a cold and dark world;
My heart was frozen in an icy prison,
Unable to feel things like pity and remorse,
Unable to feel love.

For a short time, I thought
I felt the warmth of another…
But, once again, I was wrong.
I swore that I would never allow myself
To be hurt again!
That no one would ever know the good inside me again!

I felt my heart sinking deeper into my chest;
Its beat growing ever more faint
Under the ice as it grew thicker, colder and heavier.
With its descend, a demon emerged from the depths,
Ready to rain its fury down upon the world
Until its thirst was quenched,
This demon was HATE.

Hate, I hated love and wished
For nothing less than its destruction.
This malice ran through my veins like
A poison that would sicken anyone who came
In contact with it.

My hate rampaged on; it seemed as though
Nothing could stop it…but
Something unexpected occurred:
You entered my domain.

Blinded by hate, I only paid you passing glances,
Never contemplating the possibility of us being together.
It seemed as though your interests were in others
Until the day of the duels

I thought that combat would not be to your liking,
But you jumped right into the fray with me.
We fought until I could not lift my arms to clash a blade again;
I needed rest.

As I laid my head to rest, you were right there.
You allowed me to rest my head on you.
As I passed into the abyss, I felt your touch on my back,
I wasn’t sure what was happening.
I figured, “Let her have her fun,”
It meant nothing to me.

Then, your hand moved to my head.
I felt myself enjoying what was going on.
But I still had no feeling as to what was transpiring.
Then you left me, but before you did,
You gave me your numbers and,
To my shock and amazement,
Not one but two kisses!

The next day, I awoke with a very different feeling about me.
I didn’t know what it was, but it felt as if the icy weight in my chest
Had gotten lighter?!
We continued to converse, getting to know each other.
The ever present hate in the back of my head seemed to quiet
And my chest continued to lighten as we fell into each other’s arms.
I also found myself returning the kisses you had paid me earlier.

I couldn’t believe what was happening to me,
All of the feelings I had locked away
In my Pandora’s Box seemed
To have been released and were snuffing out the flames
Of my hate and torment.

I found that I was being enveloped
In a sweet ecstasy that was growing stronger
With every passing day with you.
My heart was ascending with an ever-increasing pace;
Its beat growing stronger and stronger
Until the day we said that we wanted to be together.

I felt an explosion of passion
That not ever the brightest super nova
Could come close to equaling
The ice imprisoning my heart was gone.
I felt life returning to me;
I had been resurrected by the warmth
Of a beautiful angel who saved me from
The cold, from the dark, and from my hate.

And now I tell you this, my dear,
What I feel for you will only get better and better,
I care for more and more each passing day.
You have made me whole again;
I am no longer the angry boy
With a vendetta against the world;
I am now the man with so much love to give
And is finally having it returned.